Dear Wife

Dear Wife,

I know that I have let you down so many times.  I am aware that I am the cause of so many of your frustrations.  I am guilty of diving so hard into all kinds of other things and when I do, I leave your feelings and your needs aside.

I could say that I will try harder or do a little more.  But I have said that so many times that I don´t think either you or I believe that anymore.

It is more than evident that this man you call your husband, is less than he should be.  I know of my limitations and short-comings.  Instead of looking inside of me for a solution I will turn to Someone greater than me.  If I could not be perfect, then I must turn to One who is.  I turn to Jesus Christ and His Father who loves us.  I turn to the creator and redeemer of all men of the earth.

I will ask Him to come into my life in such a way that He removes from me all these problems and limitations.  He will have to make me into a new person, because this old one is not good enough.  I am asking Him to come and live inside of me.  If He is able to do this, (and He is able to do ANYTHING!) then I would be set free from being me.  He could make me into a new man.  One that does not live for myself or my old desires anymore.

He himself could come and start to live inside of me.  He could move me to love as He loves, treat other people as He treats them.  The person that they call love itself, would be in me loving you and the kids and everyone else that belongs to Him.

Please dear Lord, come and put an end to me.  Take all that formerly lived within me away.  I am asking You to make me something new.  Fill me with You and Your love so that I may love my wife and others as You would have me love them.  Fill me with Your Holy Spirit.  I cannot continue any longer this chasing of my own goals and my own desires.  Make me a new man.  I am done living for me.  Bring me to the point then give me your words and make it real today when I say, ¨It is finished.¨  Then let me give up my spirit as You did before, and in that void that is left behind, let Your Spirit sweep in to fill and to heal.

I humbly ask, knowing that You will have to work every part of this to make it into reality.  But take all you need to away from me so that this may be done for Your glory.

Amen