Jesus, knowing all that was going to happen to him, went out and asked them, “Who is it you want?” John 18:4 (NIV)
It seems a bit of a hodgepodge mob that comes through the darkness to apprehend Jesus. Some have torches, some lanterns and even some are with weapons. There is a detachment of soldiers, some officials and at least one servant of the priest. In the gloom of one of the darkest nights of the history of our race, Jesus sees what is really happening. He knows what time has come. He knows it all and sees clearly unlike we do who struggle to focus through the shadows. So Jesus makes it easy for the mob. He goes out to them. He comes right out and asks them Who they seek. But are they expecting that? Are we?
It may be hard to imagine the events that happened that dark night. We have the written accounts. We may even have a pretty good imagination. Hollywood might have placed its impression on the way we see it or the lessons we had growing up. But the truth of the matter is that we all have had to make our own journey as they did that night. Whether we had near of far to travel, we each must come to a moment of finding Jesus.
We too are a hodgepodge group of individuals. We all come holding something. We may think we know what to expect, but a little honest scrutiny will betray our fears. Where Jesus sees clearly in any kind of darkness, we cling harder to our torches. Where we don´t know what could possibly happen when we really do meet Him, He knows what the future holds and what an entire universe cannot contain. Are we expecting to find a meek and weak character once we finally come into His Presence? Have we brought our prejudices as some form of weapon to defend ourselves? Are we really prepared? One thing is for sure, the world will never be the same again. Are we ready for His question?
Jesus asks who we want. What kind of question is that? Why even ask it? Isn´t it obvious enough? Some have fallen to the ground. The darkness around us is only made more eerie by the frail torchlight we bring. Yet before us stands the Light of the World. Before us stands One Who has brought back life to the dead. Before us stands a Wonder the likes of which we cannot fathom. So as His voice breaks through our darkness, how does our feeble voice try to respond? Who do we want? Who is it that we came to meet? Do we know? Should we?
We have come to find You. Even if we have never left the company of those who follow You, please bring us to this moment. Let us find ourselves in Your Presence! Let the weight of the moment seize us! Let the realization of Who You Are come upon us! Our imaginations cannot scratch what You are really like. We cannot see through our dark world into Your kind of Light. There is no limit to where You will take us! We only realize our unworthiness and our limitations. But we will put our hope in You. Help us to lay down our defenses. Help us to come without any preconceived ideas. Rather let us be pleasantly surprised. Thrill us throughout eternity with the marvelous discoveries of the One Who we want to see now!